Friday, March 12, 2010 ♥
never noe.. @ 2:24 AM
Sumtimes i dun mean my words..but most of the time i do! and my post is sumtimes full of craps and nonsense stuff..cause at that point of time i just type how i really feel n dun care about hu's gonna read it or how they wud feel but it always change the next day.a post of mine can be so harsh, thats because how i feel at that point of time.but sumtimes i dun really mean that way.my situation is so so confuse.sumtime im overeacting,but theres reason to it.. i've hurt,i've sad,i've been happy and i've cried and this is the only way i let it out..
to tell the truth,ayul never really hurt me badly..he has his reason why he leave me. yes,i do feel hurt n its because i was deeply inlove with him..but is just to bad it didn't work out how i want to.[sumtimes we can never get what we really want..] and he treat me nice infact he's the nicest person.but i don't noe what i really want now..i can never forget the day he left me n those days we spent together.every kiss was magical,every 'iloveyou' seems true...but its no point looking back.i've move on with life knowing sumhow sumwhere theres always him in my memories..i can never forget him and never will..im trying to run away from certain things..i don't want history to repeat.and i dunno how to say no but please do understand why i don't want to say yes.
every little thing reminds me of him.i don't deny i miss him much but if you in my shoes,you'll know how i really feel.how hurt am i when the chances that i gave was never really treasured,the fear i'll be left out again,the tears of hurts,the lips that never want to kiss no one,the fingers that never fit on no one hand execpt his..this is why im struggling..i don't want another him,but i never want him back..there are times when i received his texts or phone call i tried not to reply to him but i can never see someone hurt because of my foolishness in other words i can never hurt sumone i care...but i can no longer trust anybody and i don't blame him for this..cause at the end of the day its my fault cause i believe people words too fast include his words...and whenever i receive msgs from him it feels as if the history gonna repeat again.the pleads,the cries and the problem gonna start again..i dunno what i shud do.. ):
i don't want anything else and its not that i choose not to be happy..i simply can't be happy..dun ask me to be happy cause u noe me well.no matter how sad or unhappy i am,i'll never frown.(:
Labels: i fear nothing anymore.not even losing you..cause u'll always stay in my heart no matter how far you go..
