(u always be my first kiss,i miss us so much!)

erm,to whom it may concern. i broke up with ayul,on 24 dec 09 n its been 27 days im single.n its quite bored when u went out u see all the couple holding hands..laugh at small little things.without any shame feeling they kiss for a sec infront of you.erghh..n at first u won't feel so lonely but after seeing those couple walk around acting so in love,n here come all the flashbacks how u noe that u n him were so much better then those couples..then it always flashback to the part where we disturbing each other..n we feel lonely again..geez.can the feeling stop? (: but for me when ever i see people holding hand,it remind me how us used to hold hand.^^ its weird..cause we never hold hand properly..the fingers always everywhere.. and we will never make it right cause we both knew its perfect that way.. ^^ when the eyes met n i wonder if its still me he saw or it have change... cause the last time i see his eyes i saw it wasn't me..i see confused n mixed feeling...hmmm... i blame myself for not understand him more..but i still blame him for his stupid actions.n just leave me like that.heartless but can't bare to see me deeply hurt he decide to leave.. its for my own good.n i love him for that.a guy doesn't meant to break ur heart but he have to before it hurts badly. after we broke up.i've become stronger,and because of him i learnt to understand people more... (: he make me learn this lesson and carefully observe everything nicely n let me think y it happens this way.. he was a wonderful person,i swear he is..infact is nothing more i could ask for..and he is the first true love i ever had.. and i dun deny that its hard to get over him.. ^^ but i noe slowly i will.. and thanks all to my friends for being there for me... :D

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