Wednesday, January 27, 2010 ♥
its unbearable. @ 5:04 AM
waited for u at downtown,so excited can't wait to see ur face.. cause my misses was high~
i never expected it turn out to be like that..i was merely testing u n u were so sensitive..
and when i want to tell u,what did u do?u hang up the phone!
so i msg u..what did u say? "gi balek sudah,i takder mood" and i never replied so u sent the second msg,i was hoping and change ur mind,but what did u say?"org tanyer baik2 u tanak jawab kan.u g layan diri sendiri kae pat downtown.nak org dengar ckp dier je.ingatkan dah ubah..tapi tetap samer" u said i will never change,isn't that wat u want?dun change?isn't that what u love me for?
if u really want us badly,its not me that suppose to be waiting..its u..
if u really want us badly,its not me that suppose to be waiting..its u..
and when u say i treated u like a dog,do u noe how my heart shattered???
if i were treating u like one,i woudn't be the one waiting n keep waiting for u at PASIR RIS instead if u really want, its u hu suppose to be at SENG KANG waiting for me...i do as u told,so y can't u?
and u noe why i ask u to be early?cause i want to stay beside u longer... u noe i have curfews rite...time past real quick.
5 to 9 is too short and u noe how much i love to be at ur side... but u dunno this all.what did u do?u went bck to sleep while im at home so happy and thought u would very excited that we can patch things bck..but i thought wrong and its sadden me how dissapointed am i today..
i was putting hope.hoping this gonna be alright..
im already at pasir ris and waiting yet i wait even tho i noe u went bck to sleep...and what do i do wrong?its only right for me to get angry.cause i'll be happy if u put an effort.but its not u hu waited for me.its me that waits for u.
u left me just like an idiot..i was crying at the same spot i told u and thousands of eyes looking at me..and how i remembered u say how important am i to u...if i am,u woudn't be treating me this way..do u have any idea how terrible i feel??if u would make a little sacrifices,do u noe how worth it going to be?? im not puttiing any blame on you..i merely says what is on my head..i want things to work out,so i let u be..i tot after an hour u would change ur mind and msg me or call me.but no,u didn't...i guess thats what u want..keep us hanging~ u just throw the chances i gave..im sad with ur actions... do u noe how stupid i look?i dunno where shud i go?i venting my anger on my bestfriend..all i cud do is cry,cause no one to hear what i have to say??do u noe how excited to go home to bring good news to my sister?no u dunno...u said u were sleepless the day before cause u were thinking bout me.how bout me? 2 MONTHS!2 months i never sleep properly cause of u every night!thinking where gone wrong?is it my fault?what did i do?when u have ur nights very peacefully,im in bed but can't even close my eyes!do u noe that there is one time,its been long u've been gone,i cried badly cause i realise im still stuck and i dunno where shud i stand???i can't remember a thing cause its u that have been on my mind!do u noe all that?
and i can only sleep whenever i receive text msgs from u..i noe u may not believe this,its still u hu can put me to sleep..its still u..do u have any idea how happy am i wen the day i meet u?i see myself again!i see my smile!i see happiness in those eyes...i have no idea that u think of me that way..i never treated u like a dog..NEVER! i dunno anymore..
i find myself very useless...and now,when i decide to give us chance..u bring me down again..giving up.do u noe how my heart hurts?no u dun!u dun even care anymore.. put urself in my shoes!cause i already put myself at ur place!i thank god for answering my prayers today,cause all i ask from god that we can work things out...but i didn't expect u would do this to me..im so so so dissapointed.. ):
im angry at myself for being stupid!do u noe that???
if only u would say"stay right where u are,i'll be there in a moment" i will be the happiest girl.. but things happen i can't turn back time..im sorry for what i've done,im sorry if u feel that way..i never meant this to happen..like u said to syafiq, there are some girls that are better than me..hope u will find that girl.. I WOULD LIKE TO THANK YOU FOR THE EFFORT YOU MAKE,IM SORRY~
Labels: i hope u come to ur sense.
